THE LOGOGRIF

I have to become the Mauri, as well as the Regime. I have to become the diseased, as well as the disease. I have to become the poison, and the cure. That’s a matter of breathing technique. That’s a matter of learning how to die and get reborn. That’s simply a matter of love.

Being the poison and the cure

Wisdom nr 2: Letting go, opening up. Buddha nature (or if you prefer: the nature of Christ) is to let go of the mechanical, egotistic behaviour in you that desires controll and productivity. Today a couple of events confronted my need of controll and the desire to keep. I must practice pure love, which begins in the letting-go-opening-up movement in your soul that makes you transparent and still dense of life. Invite your friends. Give away the coins in your pocket and lend out your cell phone. Don’t worry. You didn’t these things when you were born. You won’t need them when you pass away, so why do you really need them right now? As soon as I went to sleep, I started to panic: I couldn’t find my wallet. Once again materiality proved its presence in me. 

Wisdom nr 3: Everything begins in your breath. Breathing is the first and last thing you’ll do in life. The breathing body is the mirror of the breathing universe. And still, what I am lacking most of is breath. So I must learn how to breathe. I must start all over, from the beginning.

Letting go - Opening up

A strange first day at home, taking care of unfinished business, studying buddhism and realizing that a lot of knowledge is just nothing but vanity.

Wisdom 1/26 (should be nr 1): Knowledge isn’t wisdom, and wisdom has nothing to do with knowledge. If this blog is going to be about my wisdom, it can’t go on publishing stupid or pointless things I’ve learnt from reading a book or watching teve. What’s interesting is what a man/woman learns from life itself. This may therefore be my first wisdom: That knowledge isn’t wisdom. Knowledge is something you forget. Something you possess. Something you can loose. Something that a computer can do for you. Wisdom is a scar from life itself. Wisdom comes from life itself. Wisdom can’t be possessed, nor be lost. Cause you are a product of wisdom itself. The wisdom I’ve got, is what I really am.

Wisdom

Lång färd från Norberg till Göteborg. Avresa från Avesta. Byte i Sala. Byte i Västerås. Framme i Göteborg. Spårvagn till Majorna. Och så nervositeten inför att öppna dörren. Öppna brevlådan. Öppna posten. Öppna kylen. Lite mögel, några trista räkningar, sedan var man alltså hemma på riktigt. Och att komma hem är ändå något särskilt, inte minst efter 2 x 4 veckor “on the road”, med hela livet i en ryggsäck och en fiollåda.

Lärdom 25: Jag är en landkrabba. Jag är en stadsbo. Jag gillar närvaron av smuts, trafikljud, trafikljus, bussar, spårvagnar, bilar, måsar, gapande fyllon och sura nattklubbsägare. Men det hade jag aldrig gjort utan omväxling. Min generation tillhör den mest hysteriska och rastlösa generation som levt på denna jordyta, menar jag. Om möjligt är de som är tio år yngre något värre, de stackarna. Och den kanske värsta insikten är att jag lika snart som jag lugnat ned mig kommer att känna den där rastlösa känslan igen. Den som pockar, hackar, gnager och biter mig både till sängs och till vardags. Att man vill i väg. Utforska mer. Se mer. Leva mer.

Hem, just nu

Not much happened this day, besides solving a couple of crosswords and sudokos. Is this what happens with your life when you’re becoming a grown-up, or am I just a lazy bloke without inspiration? Anyhow, surprisingly enough I didn’t gather much wisdom, except from the awful movie “A perfect storm” which at least had me curious enough for checking out the places the swordfishermen mentioned.

Wisdom nr 22: A perfect storm is a really bad movie, but also the name of a couple of weather systems colliding, therefore creating what could be called a “weather bomb”. Or more easily put: you don’t want to be there when it happens. But it’s fun watching on TV, or on Youtube. I have a couple of favourite clips on great storms I’ll share with you. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o0fQ1eWv36o & http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CRO6H8puHF8&feature=fvsr

Wisdom nr 23: I am getting to weak for watching people trolling swordfishes, one after another. I used to be that kind of vegetarian at least capable of keeping distance from pictures and film clips of dead animals and such, but something has happened. Could it be the Osho-meditation?

Wisdom nr 24: Reading a book about Buddhism, I’m amazed about the stories from 800 – 500 b.c when it started to take form in Vedic India. The situation in the society seemed to be comparative with the situation in the Western world today. People where looking for something else than material surplus and at the same time an individualistic tendency feeded a movement from the religious traditions focusing on the collective rituals and offerings, to the more spiritual and transcendent mindfulness that one can find in the Sutras of Buddha. Even more interesting is that Buddhism and Hinduism in many ways probably changed one another equally.

Too weak to watch this? Maybe you're becoming a buddhist...